Therefore like it or not it's yet another reason for continuing on this path to another 20 pounds of weight coming off before the big day! I have hit the biggest struggle and plateau since I started my weight loss journey 3 months ago. Since I hurt my back it's like someone pulled the plug. I have stopped exercising altogether, even my morning walks with the kids have gone by the wayside I am ashamed to say.
I have hit an absolute brick wall but have decided to face it. Take one brick away at a time and keep chipping away at it. I have come so far having losing 28 pounds now, another 20 odd and I would be where I want to be. I know it's doable but I feel like I have hit an absolute stop. I haven't been recording my food which is a huge mistake and I have been picking at things I shouldn't but the biggest thing is the exercise I was doing so well with has stopped.
I keep trying to pull myself together and say to myself 'I have not backtracked back to the beginning, it's just a hiccup' I haven't put on any weight but now I don't want to go this week in case I have! I don't want to lose a pebble. (Our leader gives us a pebble every time we lose a KG) Our leader doesn't take them away we have to take them away ourselves and not put them back till we regain the loss...harsh!!
I hate exercise at the best of times but I had got to the point where I was doing it and vaguely enjoying it (not to put to fine a point on the word 'vaguely'!!) I get up every day at the moment making a promise to do something and end up doing nothing apart from working. How do I get back on track?
Baby steps, I have to start again with baby steps. Don't expect half an hour every day, expect perhaps just a walk and take it from there. It's so depressing when you let yourself down and let the exercise go because you know what a hard graft it's going to be to get yourself back where you were again. I know Taebo will be bloody horrendous when I try to do it again. I will huff and puff my way through 10 minutes and feel like I am going to die!! I am SO angry with myself for letting this happen, I was doing so well. This was supposed to be a life style change not something that I would break, it was supposed to take over my thought processes and become a part of my life without having to think too much about it. I can be so naive when I want to be!!
|Chameleon Dress - www.annahstretton.co.nz|
I think also a trip to Annah Stretton to try on my Goal weight prize might help. I have chosen my wedding outfit (if I get there!) it's a chameleon dress in turquoises it's simply the most beautiful dress I have ever seen. I feel in love with it the first time I saw it!!! However when I first tried it on although you can wear these dresses whatever your shape I started to imagine what I would look like in a small. I have to envision myself in that dress, looking gorgeous and at goal weight and how that makes me feel....It would make me feel great!!! Yes definitely a trip to try it on again!!
One promise to myself... Tomorrow morning I AM GOING TO get up and go for a walk with my kids to the park.
Have a good week folks!
P.s My new muse is celery - apparently it takes more calories to eat celery than it actually contains...that has to be a good thing!!!